Book III - Page 6

Well was still feeling slightly off and that did get better but then turned way worse.

I sad in the tavern most of the day just sipping a couple of drinks not really that many.. Just feeling a bit off. Then I talked to a couple of people in the town square but one was just ego stroking and the other seemed a bit strange.

Later in the evening I ran into pretty face but didn't see Lux. Tas and I went around him asking his usual questions to people.. This one woman was trying to find out who had poisoned some drinks last night... I swear she asked her pet squirrel if Tas was lying when she asked if it was him and he almost managed to convince her that it was the one that had given her an antidote that was behind it all.

We talked with the Watchmen who sent us to the orchard and that was where it got really weird.

When we got to the orchard it seemed abandoned but I felt drawn to a large deserted house especially to the second floor.. There was this strange familiarity with the place but I am sure I haven't been there before but besides that there was also something dark not really over the place but more a feeling bot ominous and strange exhilarating.

While I was standing like a stupid person and just watching the house from the outside Tas looked through the barn and the small house without finding anything.
We went inside the large house together or well he went in and I followed quickly.
Upstairs I was drawn to a room... There was a broken table but it was a bit like in a dream cause for a moment when I placed my hand on the table it seemed more like this metal and glass box filled with shadows. The feeling from before grew stronger and I hurried out but still feeling the pull.

Tas was ever observant and I know he didn't buy my excuse but what could I tell him? I don't even know what it was myself. 

For some reason my choker seems awfully constrictive tonight but I well still keep my promised and not try to remove it... The dread and fear in her voice still rings in my mind when I think about it.

I think ill just drink till I pass out else I fear I wont get any sleep tonight...

Book III - Page 5

I found release in the night just another faceless dream as we came to settle in Darkshire. It was nice with a bath and some clean clothes and no armor...

The worst part about anything self destructive is that it is so intimate.. you become so close with your affliction that leaving it behind is like killing a part of oneself that taught you how to survive.

Well I found Tas and Lux as I walked through Duskwood. 

We went to the Grove because Tas wanted some moonwell water as it apparently works even better than healing potions. 

There were a couple of people there and also this dinosaur like snapping turtle thing. It went crazy and attacked when Tas.. Should call him silver tongue... Its really fascinating to hear him talk with people cause his tone of voice and his body language sometimes betray that he is more often than not just being polite to get information but underneath he doesn't give a rats ass about what they want to talk about. 

Lux took care of that turtle thing when it became all feral like and attacked.

We went back to the Darkshire and I ended up staying up most of the night just drinking alone as I wasn't really in the mood for random company... Yes I am being weird I know but time apparently changes a person. Would have been nice with some company but idle chit chat just seemed to bother me.

Book III - Page 4

We finally went to Dustwallow to seek out the pirates. Tas and Lux where already there when I arrived along with one of their other friends... a void elf. Never introduced himself so didn't get his name but he was a bit of a looker... Seems it is a thing with these Vagabonds... Not that I am complaining it is always nice to have something pleasant to look at still he was a bit to quiet for my taste but then again it was a short meet.

Tas had reconned and there where three ships docked. We or well mostly they came up with a plan... Sneaking in a full plate went surprisingly well but then again there wasn't much look out.

Tas took out the first ship with explosives and the rest of us cleaned out the second ship and took care of their cannons... Took a blokes head off... A bit of a rush not seen much combat lately... I know I shouldn't find that rush so welcoming. 

We went to the main ship where we found the Captain and she had Lux friend. She was taunting him and we started taking out her henchmen while Lux engaged her. 

There was this weird Crow that wasn't acting normally so I took it out after cleaving a pirate in two. It seemed that this hurt the Captain but she sadly ended up killing Lux friend which caused Lux to destroy not only her but the entire ship.  
We got the body of Lux friend to shore so Lux could take the body and bury it.

The feeling I had almost forgotten it because it has been so long... After such fights I always feel a bit off.. fingers itching and it is like a build up energy that needs to be released. I always feel spelled and I cannot deny the need for release and if I don't get it it only grows stronger. Yet this evening was not one that provided release and refuge.. I do hope I can control the madness just for a little while longer until we reach the Kingdoms again.

"I wake up every morning to fight the same demons that left me so tired the night before...
Will it ever end?" 

Book III - Page 3

We finally got away from Ashenvale which was good but walking along the Barrens in armor was annoying as feck.

Lux is somewhat of an eccentric. He walked straight through the Crossroad alerting everyone to our presence. But nothing came of it lucky enough.

We decided to stop at Ratched where we bumped into two females elves one of them was a bit chatty the other just standing there which was really weird.

But I always like to meet new people and the talkative one seemed okay... Tasilar seemed very on edge but I think it was because of her being a Fel user. But also his comment about being happy we met I was unsure if it was a bad joke or if he meant it cause it seemed little misplaced. 
It is clear he is a smooth talker and one needs to look deeper to figure out what is just polite talk and what he really thinks.

I was surprisingly tired after the walk so it was got to get out of the arm and into a well somewhat soft bed though to actually get a bed for myself and not a hide on the ground was expensive.

Lets see what tomorrow brings...

Book III - Page 2

Okay so today was boring as feck... I mean there is litterally nothing to do out here than watching plantes grow...

Yeah sure its beautiful with emerald green trees and crystal clear waters but I mean come on... Where is the fun?

In the evening after i had been out ridning and also done some combat training i went for a drink at first everything was empty but then an elf here and there showed up...

First they talked with there own but after a while i struck up a conversation with a small group.. one of the females really had an eye to me and well she wasnt all that bad but there was just something off with that one...

But good folk... Good mead... Good chatting... 

Book III - Page 1

So I ran into these two new people today Tas and Lux... I must admit I haven't really had anything for elves but he was kinda hot.. Hmm maybe its just all the time on the road talking... I dunno.
He seems kinda a ladies man but not one of those self absorbed ones.. good riddance.

His friend was huge but seemed really old and wise.. Got sort a these dad vibes and that's really weird cause I never knew my father.. Well or my mother to be frank.. Mistress Qill is the closest to that I recon.

But he was really fun to talk to and seems they are out here hunting pirate... That brought back a few memories and I'm really eager to join them. I'm taking them back to the Marsh cause there was a ship that was wrecked cause of them back there dunno if it has anything to do with the ones their looking for but yay they wanted to follow up on it.

But yeah we are staying here in Astranaar until they have gotten a hold of their friends. I think this is gonna be another boring night but at least they have some good mead and I've been on my best behavior since yesterday... I mean these elves are so stuck up out here so need to just let loose a little.. 

Well be fun to see what this brings and amazing to sleep in a real bed again...
Wonder how these elves will take me skinny dipping in their lake...

Book I - page 14

I feel so off lately, i should be dancing on clouds after what Jerry told me but it is as if something is clouding my mind.

I was shocked to hear the words come over his lips, i did not expect him to be the one to tell me such.
I am trying not to give in fully cause i know it is the light dead overheals love, not the deep and life changing one, cause Jerry is like me and when the roses settle then he will be gone to greener pastures.

But i am happy now... I just cant shake that nagging feeling that we are closer to the end than i can see?

Why cant i just be happy, everything should be perfect, but then why am i sitting here writing looking over at him snorring lightly in the bed.
The night was amazing and so deep and intense like nothing i have ever felt before.
The whispers in eachothers ears afterwards confying in our love.

At the moment he is mine and i am his... But can i trust his words? Is here something he is not telling me?

I love him... He loves me... only a question of how long...