Book I - page 10

This is so booorrriiinnngg i could just scream.
Qill seems to think that there is something wrong something not as it is suppose to. She seems worried though she tries to not let me know.

I miss Jerry actually think he means a little too much.
Funny how the hunger is gone here.

I cant help but wonder how he is behaving with me away for so long?

Ohh well not much to do about it... He must have a million questions as well but i dont know how to anwer them myself.

I think Qill knows more than she wants to let me know. I dont ask i know that it is not to hurt me, but how can i be so sure in that? Well i just am without a doubt. Beeing so close to her it sometimes feels like i am a part of her, her emotions and thoughts so clear to me.

I know she is different, the shadows, the tatoos over her body well only two are visiable, out here she wears them so proudly. I like to see her like this, she seems at peace for the first time in a very long time.

When she goes to train Diigar in that dark place, she always returns so happy, i swear the shadows does not want to let her go when she steppes through that dark portal every time she returns.

It is peacefull here and since i have come on the boat i only feel the cold when she is gone to be with Diigar.

I even asked if Jerry could come here to us, i would like her to meet him and wise versa but she said it had to wait until we return to the city.. soon.

She asked me a couple of times to take the collar of but when i do she becomes so concerned, i see the darkness fill her eyes, like someone has poured shadows into her eyes... living shadow swirling around until her eyes are all black. Is that what Jerry was talking about? Do my eyes do that as well?

She seems to know everything... this connection we share seems so strong, i dont mind it i will not hurt me in any way, i just wonder.

Qill will tell me when she has it all sorted she has told me... I swaer sometimes i almost think she is my mother, she sure acts like it at times.